Thursday, April 18, 2013

A little dream : fairy and scary :)


Being an IT engineer, its a bliss for everyone of us when we leave for our home after hectic schedule of work. As  I shut my work system, it automatically creates a personal space in mind apart from manager, work deliverables, colleagues etc etc.. It was an awesome eve with chilly wind. The weather has just cherished my mind and I went for a walk. Walking along the open and straight road in this lovely weather, I saw a big fantastic entrance to something. As I went closer to that place, I found it a wonderland. And I couldn’t resist myself entering into it. The place seems like scenic, fairly, ravishing and splendiferous. I kept on moving along with the pleasant flow of wind and finally found a mate. You might be wondering a mate… Yes, I saw a beautiful bird with colorful wings. But the sad part was that pretty bird was in an old ugly cage. I went closer to the bird, opened the door of cage and asked her to accompany me in strolling around. I felt a loving and warm welcome to the wonderland from the Bird. She has greeted me with a warm smile.  She helped me in guiding the routes of wonderland but refused to come out with me. I thought once why she is refusing to come out of the open door of cage. I was so lost in the beauty of the place, so I ignored her NO and started enjoying the place. Suddenly I heard a wiping noise and turned around. I got sad after seeing tears in the pretty bird’s eye. Sometimes we don’t get other ones exact feelings. People smile but we actually miss the real pain in their eyes. I felt bad, went close to her and asked about the matter. She was so matured that she came out of whatever she had in a mind. And started asking me how I found the place. I tried providing her the comfort so that she can share her pain with me. At last I have given her space , she agreed and started with a story. A story about her, her relations, her world. The story started on the day, she started flying high in the sky. She was so fun loving and bubbly. She always enjoys even when she is alone. She didn’t know what a friend is? She came to this wonderland one day. The pleasant wind of the place gave her a feeling which she founded strange but loving. Wind and bird both became friends. After that she started living in this wonderland only. Both used to have fun. Wind takes her everywhere she wishes to be. It was all fun. One day wind showed her his stormy nature. She got depressed and sad. But all what she wanted was her friend Wind after getting familiar with the beauty of friendship. She used to ignore this stormy nature of wind and waits till the wind becomes pleasant again. But with the growing time, she started finding it difficult to bear this daily behavior of wind. And one day she decided to go far and stop bearing wind. And will go back to her first friend only when He will realize her worth and call her back. In between this friendship period of Wind and Bird, She has also made many new friends. She used to feel bad for a Tiger but couldn’t have the courage to talk to him. But she has felt the pain in Tiger’s eye. Because no one can expect a Tiger to be silent. She came closer to the Tiger as a consequence with Wind’s fight. She was broken up already and was afraid to share her pain with anyone. But it’s a normal tendency, we get involve in other’s pain and forget ours. That’s what has happened with the Bird. She made a new friend. Tiger used to protect her from every difficulty. Bond of their friendship started growing more with the time. Once again her destiny cheated on her. As the Tiger got the courage and friend, he started showing anger on her. This anger was the only thing she can’t bear from her loved ones. It breaks her. It makes her feel that they don’t need her anymore in their life. She got fed up of these relations. And decided to go away from this wonderland and live with new hopes. Moving moving flying flying flying.. She reached to a city. May be she was unaware of this cruel world. But luckily she found a nice garden in a proud township of city. She used to sit on a branch of tree and enjoys music from a near flat. Destiny made her meet a new friend. A guy who was a nature lover. Guy was young. He loves to live with his thoughts and nature around. But this race of growing world has brought him to this city. Like every young guy in today’s world, he too wanted to be a successful engineer. He completed his engineering and got a job in MNC. But he wanted to grow more and more. With the time, he started spending majority of his time in the office and meet his nature friend only on weekend mornings. But she was so loyal to him that she keeps on waiting for him every day and night inspite of knowing that she will be able to see him only on weekend. Later that guy got married. He started working more as now he has a life who is dependent on him. Those weekends meetings has became once in 15 days. Even though she understood and always wanted good for her friends. She was happy with his success and feels heavenly at the moment he finds time to come to meet her. And finally he got an onsite opportunity. Once again she became a victim of cruel fate. She was caught by a bird seller. He took her to the same wonderland and put her into that ugly cage. Her heart was broken once again. And suddenly ‘I m all out of Love’ started… OMG its 7:00 am. And its my alarm tone. I woke up with tears in my eyes. I have to start like a machine for this new day of mine. So I ignored this dream of mine and went for work. But this day was a bit different for me. I couldn’t concentrate for the whole day on my work. I couldn’t forget the bird in ma dream. I couldn’t forget her pain. I had lots of questions in my mind. What was her fault? Jst that she wanted love , she was loyal to her friends.. all that she wanted to make everybody happy. You can’t imagine a broken person forgetting everything and move on a lot of times. She has tried thrice.. I have felt the strength in her words. But as she was ending up the story I felt she is so broken up that she is so afraid to move on. But once again she has to. As thats the life is. She has actually faced the cruel truth of this world. I just wish God gives her strength once again to live and fly high. Sometimes its ego, sometimes its love, sometimes its destiny has broken her. LL

Sunday, June 12, 2011

U have set me free..


U have set me free
4m d joy we had
4m d fights we had...

U hv set me free
4m d tym we spent
4m d dream I had...

U hv set me free
4m d love we felt
4m d pain we shared...

U hv set me free
4m d bond we shared
4m d little teasing which was dere...

U hv set me free
4m every promise of togetherness we made
4m d thought of distance, i was afraid...


U hv set me free
4m d feeling of closeness
4m d pain of separation...

U hv set me free
and made me alone,
to travel d paths, we have dreamed of
walking together wid hands in hands...


Nw i find it hard,
either to enjoy or cry..
as u hv set me free,
and left me alone..
wid d dreams of togetherness we saw...:-)

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Why Girl's Cry :



-A Girl Wont Cry Easily,
Except in Front of The Person;
Who She Love The Most,
She Becomes Weak..! :(

-A Girl Wont Cry Easily,
Only When She Love You The Most,
She Put Down Her Ego..!

-If a Girl Cries Bcoz of You,
Hold Her Hands Firmly,
She`s The one Who Would Stay With You
For The Rest of Your Life..♥

-If a Girl Cries Bcoz of You,
Don't Give Her Up..!
Maybe Bcoz of Your Decision,
You Ruin Her Life..! :(

-She Cries Not Because She is Weak,
She Cries Not Bcoz She Wanna Sympathy or Pity,
She Cries Because;
Crying Silently is No Longer Possible..! :(
The Pain, Hurt N Agony Have Become Too Big;
A Burden To Be Kept Inside..! :'(

-If a Girl Cries Her Heart Out To You,
And All Because of You;
Its Time To Look Back on What You Have Done,
Only You Will Know The Answer To it..♥ !! :)

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Existence......

I cry 4 d one, 4 whm i dont exist...
I trust d one, who finds no space to b true to me...
I listened whtevr he said, pretended i believe..
Bt deep inside ma heart...Ma soul beckons me..
4 whm u r bearing d pain, 4 whom ur heart cares...
D one 4 whm u nvr exists...
Oh dear...wake up n dont spent ur lyf making him understand dat U Loved...
U Cared...
U worshiped d relation, which nvr existed 4 him.....
Stop fooling urself & face d truth..
It may leave u shattered 4 a moment..Bt wont hurt u in evry moment of lyf...
Dat U cared 4 d one, 4 whm u NVR exists.....:):)

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

devoted to ma bst frnd swati...:)


kash lyf m sab waisa hota, jo humare dil ko lubata..
Is zindagi p chalta hukum humara, har waqt sath rehta humsafar humara:-(
Na jane ye kashti hume unse kahin dur le jayegi, kaise ji payenge akele ye soch kar sanse tham jayengi:-Q
Magar age badne ka nam hai ye zindagi, esa soch kar khud b khud rahe ban jayengi....:-)

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

No need to b truthful to a prsn who cnt b true to u......

unsaid words...


Unsaid words...were rolled into

tears :(
it ws d day , evrybdy were propsing

deir love...
in fun, in jokes.. u gave me d

courage to propose..
U send me to an wondrland wid ur

thots...
i collectd ma thots, got d strength

to toc..
jst one word came in ma mind whn i

thot..
"SOULMATE"..
Will u be ma soulmate??
for d first tym i felt i shd say...
i cn say wht i feel 4 u.. without

any fear wht u feel 4 me..
Dont knw suddenly wht happnd,

sumthing has stoped me to speak..
i ws afraid to hear d ans.
so i kept ma feelings in silence...
Silence.. which ws gud 4 both, u &

me...
I buried al i feel deep inside ma

heart... may b u will nvr knw..
may b i will nvr shw..
:(:(